Ed Note: Leslie struggles with brain chemistry issues and is sharing her amazing journey as a wonderful wife, mother, friend and colleague.
By Leslie Scott
Things that make me want to hide in a closet and cry:Waking up in the morning
Going to bed at night
Getting dressed
Going to work
Coming home from work
Doing homework with my kids
Not doing homework with my kids
Making meals
Laundry
Being with my kids
Not being with my kids
Talking to people
Not talking to people
My cat's meow
My dog being outside
Taking a shower
Brushing my hair
Looking at a text message
Not looking at a text
Moving to a new house
Staying at the old house
Looking into the future
Not being able look past the next thing I need to do in a day.
The only way for me to make it through this is to figure out, WHY! Why do I feel this way, why are some days worse than others, why now at this point in my life?
Sure, there are some things I'll never understand. I'm not a doctor. I don't understand hormones and brain chemistry. But maybe I can find patterns, maybe I can listen to my body more, maybe, maybe, maybe......
If "The Lord loves effort," then that's what He's going to get. I will give it my best. Even if my best somedays is putting one foot in front of the other and that's all I can do. And until that time when I can answer WHY, I'll take it ONE DAY AT A TIME!
Sidenote...things that don't make me anxious......"The Office."
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