Ed Note: Introducing a new columnist for RCTonline. Leslie struggles with brain chemistry issues and is sharing her amazing journey as a wonderful wife, mother, friend and colleague.
He thinks he's silly, but it means the absolute world to me!
Ryan has turned down my bed and left me a chocolate on my
pillow for the last couple of nights. And, while I don't usually eat the
chocolate, it sure makes me smile!
He is my rock, my protector, my therapist, and my best
friend! To say that I couldn't make it through life without him would be an
understatement.
And while this COVID-19 has been such a tragedy in the lives
of so many, it has been a huge blessing in mine. He has been here every day and
every night. Something I haven't had for years.
We are told in the scriptures over and over again that we
won't be given a trial we can't handle..... I also believe that we are given
specific trials at certain times in our lives, when circumstances align in
which we CAN handle them.
Can I handle crippling anxiety....YES! But I firmly believe
that I can't do it alone. When things first started to fall apart, before our
global pandemic, I knew I was going to have to move. I needed to be where Ryan
was all the time. But then, because of things happening in the world around us,
he was able to work from home. And for weeks, while I've battled demons inside,
he's battled the demons outside, (aka, our children). He watches me like a
hawk, makes sure I eat, and helps me battle every little storm.
And while we are slowly finding answers and solutions, I am
finding peace and security in being by myself again. And when things go back to
normal, I just might be strong enough to take it One Day at a Time on my own
again. In a place that I love, surrounded by the people that I love.
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